wondering? muse

Friday midnight, 2:19 am

I'm here, savored the warm english tea with rose
and recall all the conversation with my friend,this evening,
after all the happy and warm dialogue
she said:" u all know wat u wan so good"
im perplexed, and ask myself, do i give everyone the impression that
i have no worries, happy and never lost ,and know what to pursue
perhaps my friends think that i'm in bliss...
hmm.. perhaps i am. i must confess this.
BUT as a human being, this kind of creature,
at least, i am. i always try to ...

like majority, i am lost and wondering:


PERHAPS i knew already,actually, what i'm interest in, in the very early state,
just that i have no courage to do..
im confuse? im lost?
no, i dont think i am..

unconciously, i truly know..
now, i just wish to
and i know , i ill go to pursue my dream...
a very simple lifetime--- perhaps a carefree lifetime..
writing a story, drawing, playing pianoforte...

watsover, i think i'm pursuing my dream already,
because im always writing a story(always incomplete though), drawing, playing pianoforte
lol..^^
i.. always caught up in such time..

sometimes what we are doing is not what we are pursuing,
we always try to hide our most precious things.. in our inner thought..
perhaps.. is so-called... hmm..
thanks to her, make me realize this.^^

ps: wish her all the best!^^